I was perfect

I did everything
I fought against myself and put my bitterness out of me
It wasn’t enough to make you feel

I did everything
I locked up my fears and gave myself a pair of wings
I gave you my healthy and I stayed sick

I did everything
Found my inner strength and desire to please
I wasn’t good enough as you wanted me to be

You only get to perfection with blood
I did it… But I lost

I went from white to black
Waiting for you to accept me like that
And only thing you do is watching me as I fall

I went from white to black
I gave you a taste of my dark
I was something else, not the little swan

I went from white to black
Scratching my tenderness to make you mad
I tried to touch you but you cut off my both hands

You only get to perfection with blood
And I did it… But I lost

You saw me shine, you saw me crawl
I see myself and ask: What’s my form?
You saw me cry, you made me tough
I hate myself and ask: What I’ve become?

I wanted to be perfect
…To reach your love and feel fulfilled
I was perfect
… And then you let me die